It’s hard being in reality
After taking the red pill, find myself staying on the actual side of reality. I usually stay on this side of reality unless I’m triggered and end up in shadow. When I’m in reality, I ketch glimpse of others who are in shadow and I feel like Neo1 who understands how the matrix works and sees people trapped in the matrix.
It’s really hard not to engage people in shadow since I feel I’ve been where they are at. Unfortunately, I also realize being in shadow alters your perception of reality. No matter what I say, there’s not much that will break them free from the world they are in.
Here’s what I saw
As a treat, my family eats at Baja Fresh (a Californian/Mexican food place). As an additional treat, we visit the local bookstore and buy each kid a book. While in the children’s section of this big book store, a father found his lot 4 year old daughter. Of course, I’m not certain how you con loose your children when they are in the “Children’s” section of the book store2.
This father proceeded to scold her for being lost to the point of making her cry.
Now let me add that it’s a scary experience to loose a child. Any parent would be in panic mode with the thoughts of what would happen to your lost child.
But, is it necessary to make your 4 year old daughter cry because you were scared?
Past Emotions Projected onto the Present
I’d imagine that father was experiencing past emotions. It seemed that father was re-living a past memory when he was made to cry after being lost.
I’m sure a balanced father would experience anger, but I would hope a balanced father would not actively participate in making his 4 year old daughter cry.
I find it’s a major clue a person is in shadow when their reasoning isn’t sound or is child like. This father was defending his actions to his wife with the childlike excuse of “She made me do it!”
I would like to think I’m at the point in my progression where I can see myself and others “in shadow.” My wife gives me a look and is able to say, “There’s something else going on here that you need to deal with.” If it’s a very deep emotion, I’ll fight my instincts and hold onto that shadow reality. In the end, I end up facing the truth of reality. I just hope I don’t look that pathetic as a father making his 4 year old cry.3
It seems once you’re able to see past the primal emotions of others and realize they are having the same problems I have helps to relate to the world. I don’t see it as an excuse (“he’s doing it too, so I should be able to”). I see it more as the progress I have made and I am at the point where I can see it in others. I can see myself in them. It reminds me how often I can slip back into that role of being the monster.
1 I am not trying to equate myself to Neo nor some Christ figure. In no way am I capable of Neo’s skills nor Christ’s everything.
2 Hello!? It’s a book store with a children’s section!? Reminds me of when Joseph and Mary found Jesus in the Temple and Jesus answers with, “Hello!?, I’m in the temple!? Where else would I be?! Of course, he didn’t say this, but I paraphrased Luke 2:49
3 No matter how hard I fight against the truth of reality, I always end up looking like a little boy throwing a temper tantrum. Not like the man I’m created to be.